i love you

i love you from my heart
i love you not just on a card

i love you not for your looks
i love you not by the books

i love you not for your money
i love you not coz you're funny

i love you without a pause
i love you without a cause

i love you without a due
as i love you coz you are you

title death do us apart

this was written inspired by a friend of mine who lost the love of his life to cancer..

never have i found a love so true
never have i felt anything so pure
the world changes when i'm with you
so without you dear, there is no cure

i tried to find the strength to move on in life
coz the only reason to live left without goodbye
i'm living, i'm breathing but not alive
coz the moment you left, i die

to me you said never to cry
to me you said to move on in life
but one thing is sure i cannot deny
that the more i try the more i'm alive

i use to say till death do us apart
never to know that it came so fast
i'm not ready to go on without you
that is why my life now is so untrue

love

L.O.V.E

If only I know what's true
Whether he's lying or not
Because from his point of view
I’m all he got

He doesn't call to say hi
Or to check if I’m fine
Coz it's me who ring his life
Almost all the time

I’ve tried to understand
All the reasons he gives
Not knowing where I stand
And what to believe

It’s almost always
I am the reason
Not for the ways
He loved me by seasons

I have loved him all my life
Sacrificing money and time
But none of this seems alive
Coz to him I’m just a mime...

zue or fara?

a certain someone made me realised that in everyone of us there will always be at least 2 very distinguish personality....the outer and inner layer....

zue



ZUE is person that is known mostly by most of my friends..the noisy side of me...some people look at zue and see a person without borders..some say emotionless (pelik), some say fun, a good friend, kasar,ganas, talkative (of cos), someone who only live for the moment, some even look at zue as one of the boys..*sigh*
interest : CHELSEA! football, games, horror movie,sleeping.=b

fara



on the other side there's FARA....
this is a part not many got the chance to know...only those who are really close to me...
fara is usually softer, manja as some would say, however, very stubborn, ego, maybe a bit mengada-ada(hehe), more soft spoken, not as noisy as zue(i guess?)...
interest : high heels,shopping,makeups,crying(huhu),teddy bears......

conclusion : zue - boyish..fara - girlish...

it's fun to explore into the lives of these two very different yet similar person..
i look into the mirror and i see ZUE, close my eyes, take a deep breath and then look again and there's FARA...

but no matter how different ppl say this person is, they are both ME..

zue + fara = zufara
just minus the E (ego?easygoing?energetic?economical?ecstatic?-hahaha..i'm just typing words starting with e)

now that i've discover that there's a different sight of me, maybe people should also know that there's more than meets the eye....

thanx though to that certain someone who introduced me to ZUE and FARA..=)

when?why?where?

when did i ever create this blog??
why did i start blogging?
where did all this happen?

hahahahaaha...

i read this "someone's" blog today and realised that maybe i should start a blog.. but when i wanted to create blog..i just found out i already had one..*funny*..

but that is actually go0d..i've always wanted to commit into writing a blog..but can i? maybe i should try..i am in a commitment right now..another one wouldn't kill me right.......=)